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I actually don’t remember writing that post on the 4th. I was way more out of it after the anesthesia and demerol than I thought. I really barely remember anything. I know that I went to the surgery center, I remember all of that, talking to the nurses and my obgyn and stuff. I got the IV put in and all that. Then the anesthesiologist came in and was talking to me, everyone was soooo sweet there. Then eventually the anesthesiologist was like “Alright Sarah, how about a few martinis?” and he put the stuff into my IV and I remember asking him “How long will this take…… wow I feel really drunk” and I remember him saying “About that long!” and that’s all I remember. I remember waking up at the hospital in horrible pain and getting a lot of demerol and then waking up in my bed at home about 10:30pm. So aparently somewhere in there I posted that last entry. Preston said I ate and got on my computer but I was very, very talkitive like I was drunk so maybe that’s why I don’t remember!
I am doing pretty well though. I think I have come completely to terms with the miscarriage and we are both ready to try again. I took this better than I expected that I would, it’s kind of weird. I still get very sad though, usually when I see a pregnant girl or a newborn baby but other than that I am at peace with the situation. This morning though, I noticed how completely flat my stomach is. That got me pretty upset. I can’t dwell on it though. I have to stay positive and move forward.
I am waiting to get my first period and then after that we can start trying again. I hope I get pregnant again as quickly as I did the first time. My obgyn called yesterday to see how I’m doing. After the D&C I bled for a couple hours and had cramping that night but since Saturday morning I haven’t any any spotting or any cramping so it appears that I am recovering very quickly so hopefully that means my cycles will be on track too. Sorry if that’s all too much info! lol
I want to say thank you so much to everyone for the sweet and supportive comments and emails!!!
August 8th, 2006 at 3:54 pm
i’ll be right here & be just as excited when you get pregnant *again* and i know you’re going to be an absolute WONDERFUL mother & it’s all going to be just fine. much love & good wishes to you both… that’s a lot for newlyweds to handle!
August 8th, 2006 at 5:00 pm
you are so brave and obviously very emotionaly strong. goodluck
August 8th, 2006 at 6:48 pm
god, you have so much strength. In due time you will get preg again sweety and be a great mother.
August 8th, 2006 at 8:25 pm
omg i am so sorry about hearing about your miscarriage
that must be so hard, it breaks my heart even hearing about it 
I’m sure you’ll be able to carry soon
August 9th, 2006 at 1:57 pm
Im glad your better Sarah, you seem like such a great person
. I hope things get better for you soon.
August 9th, 2006 at 7:01 pm
Wow
One thing that you should feel better is, as a doctor told my little sis when she was pregnant with her baby, when a woman miscarries very early on in pregnancy it’s natures way of making sure a sick baby isn’t going to be brought into the world and also a mixture of bad luck. Also, it’s quite common for miscarriages to occur if you haven’t been off your birth control pill for quite a while since the lining of your uterus isn’t ready for it or something along those lines.
I’m terribly sorry this has happened to you… I just visited your site for the first time in a month and saw this bit really saddened me.
August 9th, 2006 at 8:32 pm
awwa Sarah you are too strong girl! I remember after I had a miscarriage (no D&C needed) I bled for 2 weeks…and I couldnt even handle it. I admire your strength. Thats awesome you guys are going to try again, you will be amazing parents when the time is right! Good luck and keep your head up.. I’m always here if you need to talk, although u have no idea who I am!
August 10th, 2006 at 5:04 am
Hello Sarah,
I’m a French author and musician, I’m a fan of you IoI
I hope you will be lucky in a few time (you are young, happiness is for tomorrow IoI)
I am the father of two young boys, but I remember I wait a long time before their “conception”.
You are the prettiest girl I have ever seen… In French :
tu es mon idéal.
With best wishes
Kisses
Miche
PS : excuse my english IoI
August 18th, 2006 at 1:20 pm
I am so very sorry for your loss! I too miscarried my first pregnancy - at 9 weeks (August 2005)- and had a D&C. It was rough as I was very sad and very angry although I believed that everything happens for a reason and if it was meant to be it was meant to be… but that didn’t make my sadness or anger any less.
When people would ask me how I was doing I would tell them that I was “very bummed” because that is how I felt… there were really no words to describe something so numbing. It took us a while to get pregnant again (6 months… which sucked since we had gotten pregnant the very first time we tried - so the 6 months seemed like forever)…
This pregnancy has been hard from a worry standpoint - not really wanting to get attached for the fear of the bottom dropping out again. I started bleeding this time at 4 weeks and FREAKED out that it was happening again. But all has been well since and we are now at 28 weeks. I still worry each day that the bottom will drop out from under me, but I know that’s normal.
So know that your feelings are normal and no one will say the right things - because there are no right things to say. If you need to talk I am here —
Good luck and know that I am thinking about you… from one blogger to another! You will get pregnant again when all is right and I know that somehow you will be a mom! I wish you only the best!
-Alison