I’m trying to make a new layout but I suck with wordpress still because I haven’t bothered to play around with themes. But I’m trying!

I made a layout in Dreamweaver…… is there anyone here who could turn it into a wordpress theme for me? I’ll pay you. lol No really I will Email me if you can do it…. sarah@alittlelessordinary.com.

I just got carded for a rated R movie. WOW.

Here’s a couple low resolution pictures. I don’t have the good, high res ones yet but when I do I’ll post them!

Don’t you love the ass grab?! LOL

I actually don’t remember writing that post on the 4th. I was way more out of it after the anesthesia and demerol than I thought. I really barely remember anything. I know that I went to the surgery center, I remember all of that, talking to the nurses and my obgyn and stuff. I got the IV put in and all that. Then the anesthesiologist came in and was talking to me, everyone was soooo sweet there. Then eventually the anesthesiologist was like “Alright Sarah, how about a few martinis?” and he put the stuff into my IV and I remember asking him “How long will this take…… wow I feel really drunk” and I remember him saying “About that long!” and that’s all I remember. I remember waking up at the hospital in horrible pain and getting a lot of demerol and then waking up in my bed at home about 10:30pm. So aparently somewhere in there I posted that last entry. Preston said I ate and got on my computer but I was very, very talkitive like I was drunk so maybe that’s why I don’t remember!

I am doing pretty well though. I think I have come completely to terms with the miscarriage and we are both ready to try again. I took this better than I expected that I would, it’s kind of weird. I still get very sad though, usually when I see a pregnant girl or a newborn baby but other than that I am at peace with the situation. This morning though, I noticed how completely flat my stomach is. That got me pretty upset. I can’t dwell on it though. I have to stay positive and move forward.

I am waiting to get my first period and then after that we can start trying again. I hope I get pregnant again as quickly as I did the first time. My obgyn called yesterday to see how I’m doing. After the D&C I bled for a couple hours and had cramping that night but since Saturday morning I haven’t any any spotting or any cramping so it appears that I am recovering very quickly so hopefully that means my cycles will be on track too. Sorry if that’s all too much info! lol

I want to say thank you so much to everyone for the sweet and supportive comments and emails!!!

Wow. This has been one of the hardest days of my life.

On 8/01 I started bleeding heavy so I went to the ER because I was mega freaked out. They did an ultrasound and everything looked perfect, I saw the heart beat and everything. The doctor said the bleeding was probably normal because a lot of women have bleeding early on and that it’s probably nothing to be worried about unless it gets worse. Well I started getting bad period like cramps and the bleeding was not stopping. Today at 8:30am I had my first obgyn appointment. The bleeding was worse this morning than any of the other days. I had another ultrasound and this time they couldn’t find the heart beat. They took me to a high resolution machine and still no heart beat. The baby looked so different on the screen this time than it did when I was in the ER and saw the heart beat. So, I have miscarried. My body was bleeding but not passing any tissue yet. So I had the option of waiting to finish the miscarriage naturally, meaning that I would have to wait and actually see the tissue of the baby come out eventually, or get what is called a D&C. I was alreadying crying every time I went to the bathroom seeing blood each time, I could not imagine actually seeing the tissue. So I had a D&C today which is where they put you to sleep and clean your uterus out. It was a very short procedure. I don’t remember anything from being in pre-op until waking up in recovery. I got home about an hour ago and I am still very tired and dizzy when I stand up from being put under. I am not supposed to get out of bed except to use the bathroom for the next few days until the bleeding stops.

I am so, so, sad but I know that everything happens for a reason and I know that our baby is with God now. We are going to try again to get pregnant as soon as we can. My ob said that I will get a period in about 4-6 weeks and then once that period is over I can try again. I’m so sad but I also have peace knowing that it just wasn’t meant to be and that we will have a baby in God’s time. It’s still really hard though.

Well I am going to lay down. No pictures back yet from the wedding but I will post some as soon as I have some!