I’ve had a headache for two days now. I haven’t had a headache like this in a long time and it really sucks. Preston and TJ also have headaches so I don’t know. TJ said it’s national headache day. :up:

So I started my period. It’s alright though, I’m not too torn up over it. Maybe next month. This will only be our 3rd cycle trying and that’s really just getting started for most people. My birthday is next month so maybe it’ll be a lucky month Speakings of birthdays… I can’t believe I’m going to be 22 soon! I feel older than that, sometimes I forget that I’m only 22. I’m so much “older” (in terms of behavior and attitude) than most other 22 year olds that I know.

Oh by the way… the photo site is almost done. TJ did the design for me It’s uber cute so check back. The wedding pictures will be on there and I know you’re all dying to see those

Well, since I’m not pregnant I think I’m going to go take an extra hot bath and throw back a few martinis!

Houston ended up being a lot of fun We got work done and got to relax and hang out so it was the good kind.

I’m getting impatient. My period is officially one day late but I am still getting negative pregnancy tests and my temperature went down pretty low this morning. I’m sure it’ll show up tomorrow. I just want it to get here and be gone so we can try again! Actually, I want to be pregnant but I don’t think I am this time with all the negative tests so I just need my period to get here and then get the hell out of here.

I can’t believe I would have been almost 16 weeks pregnant by now. I was looking at a girls myspace profile who got pregnant right around the same time as me and she has this adorable 16 week pregnant belly. I was looking at her pics and started getting really sad and a little teary so I had to quit looking. Now I need to go get my mind on something else. I have a headache so maybe I’ll go take a bath and get to bed early.

We’re going to Houston tomorrow (well Friday, today technically) for work and basically, I don’t want to go. I really just don’t like Houston that much. Hopefully it’ll be fun because I’ll of course be with Preston, and TJ is coming too and the two of them together is just hilarious. It will be fun it’s just that I haven’t really wanted to do any traveling since the wedding. We did so much traveling before the wedding and right now I just want to stay around home.

Tomorrow I’m 10dpo (days past ovulation) so I’m going to be doing my first pregnancy test of this cycle. I really hope we got it this time. I’ve been feeling kind of down, pregnancy wise, the last couple of days. I miss being pregnant, and I want to be pregnant again. I feel frustrated and want my other pregnancy back. I just have to keep reminding myself that God will bless us with another pregnancy when the time is right. I’m not very patient though, so I hope that time is soon. We’ll see tomorrow maybe. 10dpo is still very early to get a positive test, but I got my positive at 10dpo last time so maybe I’ll be as lucky this time.

Well anyway, Preston and TJ are playing guitar and keyboard and making up funny songs so I’m going to go laugh my ass off! :cute:

The flickr photos aren’t there anymore because I have my own photo website that I’ve made and I’m finally ready to start using it. So check back

This past weekend was good to me. Lately I had been feeling uber stressed over work related things and it was sort of taking me over. I was in this “thing” where I was seeing the shitty side to everything. It was pathetic. I was stressed out and that obviously made me feel like crap so I was all down and then I started finding all these things that were “shitty” and it was just so stupid. I was in a funk. You know what that’s like, everyone gets that way some times. Well anyway, Kara (Preston’s sister) came over this weekend so Preston and I were able to get away from work and we just all sat around and laughed our asses off. Then I realized that I haven’t laughed that hard in a quite a while. Sure I laugh about things every day but I’m talking about that laughing so hard that you start to cry and your stomach hurts. So, thanks Kara for helping me out of my funk. :cute:

I saw two movies this weekend. Friday we saw The Black Dahlia. I personally did not like this movie. I don’t understand why, in movies like this, they have to be so graphic. There is a scene where this guy falls off of this huge winding staircase, head first, and lands on this fountain at the bottom that has this huge pointy top. They actually show the guys head smashing into the top of this pointy fountain. Seriously… why??? I really do not understand why movies are made this way now. It used to be that you would see some blood splatter on the ground after you see the guy heading toward the fountain, so you got the picture that he probably hit the fountain, but now they just show the guy as if this was real and you are standing there watching it. I think it’s horrible and unnecessary. Movies like that just distract me and all I can think about while watching it is why on earth do they have to show every last disgusting detail? I honestly believe it desensitizes people. Not just movies but video games and especially the news.

Then Saturday we saw The Gridiron Gang which I loved. This is what movies should be about. I remember when I was in Cosmetology we had to go cut hair at the juvenile detention center and it was always so depressing. I always wonder what happened to these kids, what went wrong to make them act the way they do. And sometimes I wonder what happened to them after they got out. It’s just so sad, I wish I could so something to help kids like that but I get so attached to people that I think it would be very hard to do. It was somewhat scary to go there also. The boys would be in these cells, like on this movie, and they would stand at the window and yell things and pound on the glass and they would come out one by one and get their hair cut. It’s amazing they sent female cosmetology students there to cut their hair. Anyway this movie was extremely good so I recommend it.

Well I am craving an ice cold Coke so I think I’m off to go get one.

Oh by the way… I’ll be testing on Friday to see if we got pregnant this time. Cross your fingers for me!