I can’t remember much of anything in my life that I have gone through that I could ever compare to pregnancy. However, being that I am a man, I don’t imagine I’ll ever experience anything like pregnancy.

I have watched my wife, a little bundle of energy and beauty, go through drastic changes physically and mentally, that baffles my mind. I was sitting next to her at the movies tonight, and as I watched her I noticed that for the course of the 5 minutes that I watched her, she showed signs of complete discomfort the entire time. Not 1 second went by where she looked comfortable. There is much to be said about women who willingly go through pregnancy. I have watched my wife go from small, to carrying a very oddly positioned basketball shaped uterus around in her stomach and this whole time, she is as beautiful as the time I laid eyes on her. I see how much pain and discomfort she suffers. She manages to put a smile on her face often. I didn’t really realize how consistent everything is with this. She feels awkard, 100% of the time. It reminds me of torture. Torture doesn’t stop. That’s why it is torture. It never subsides. Let me tell you how much this woman has endured. She has never been one to eat. I really believe her body doesn’t really know how to tell her when she needs to eat. Before the pregnancy, she never really got hungry. She didn’t eat very much as it was, and she never had to. To be forced to eat alot because your husband is nagging at you to feed the babies, has to be hard for a woman like her. After we read early on that twins have better outcomes when women gain more weight earlier in the pregnancy than when women gain weight slower, I felt I had to make sure she was eating. Here we are today, where she has ended up gaining in the correct weight range, and the babies are doing really well on their growth. She put up with it all, like a pro. She ate when she didn’t want to, and didn’t hate me for it. She has worked very hard, day in / day out, to give these babies the best possible outcome. She has had to overcome natural tendencies, bad habits, and has endured the stress of having to move 2 times all in less than 3 months. She has made time for her husband where most women seem to not. She has endured pain, uncertainty, and discomfort more than I could ever imagine myself going through. She has carried twin girls in her tiny little body, and managed to give them room to grow. And for the past few weeks, she has had to walk around like a full term pregnant woman with ONE baby, for twice as long as most women have to deal with. She has kept her sanity. She has loved my daughter and made her feel like she is just as important as the babies in her tummy.

I can’t even begin to do justice for how awesome this woman has been in my life already. I want to thank you Sarah for working so hard in this pregnancy to bring our babies in with a healthy start. Despite any lack of assurance you have in yourself, you need to know that you are going to be more than amazing as a mother to our kids. It’s one of the greatest feelings I have ever felt in my life knowing that we are so blessed to have two baby girls on the way, and that you are their mother. I look forward to all of the challenges, experiences, and love that we will have because of what God has given us. You are more than I could ever have hoped for, and more than I’ll ever need. I love you and I can’t wait to see our little angels.

-Preston

Sooooooo….. I have some developments to tell you about!

I had my regular 34w appointment yesterday morning. I was having some contractions but nothing out of the ordinary. She checked my cervix and it was closed, but it hurt when she checked it so it was possibly starting to ripen. Pretty normal appointment.

Last night was the worst night I have had. We went to bed at 1am and I woke up every single hour and finally stayed up at 11am. Sometimes it was from my back hurting, sometimes it was from a contraction. So my back was hurting after I decided to stay awake and I had some other odd “too much info” things happening also. I was having what seemed like a lot of contractions so around 12:30pm I decided to start keeping track of them. I was having what I thought to be contractions about every 10 minutes or so. I was planning on just lounging around all day and drinking plenty of water because I was kind of second guessing myself on the contractions. I was thinking that there were too many of them to really be contractions so maybe I was just thinking they were contractions and that it was just the babies having a good stretch. Well Preston was pretty concerned because I had some other pre-labor signs happening this morning so he called the doctor and she told me I needed to come into the office right away.

Soooo….. she checked my cervix again and this time it hurt even more than yesterday, and she said she could probably fit a finger tip in there but she wasn’t going to try because it wouldn’t be good to irritate it. Then I got hooked up to the monitors and sure enough, I was having contractions! They were pretty regularly spaced, I think about 10 minutes apart lasting around 1 minute each.

So she gave me some pills to take to stop the contractions. And I’m on strict bed rest now. My doctor will be gone for Memorial Day weekend so I’m “not allowed” to have them until she gets back. I’ll be sure to tell Emma and Ava that! So we have a sono on Tuesday, I’ll be 35 weeks then, and we’ll see how big they are and how they are presented and then she said we’ll talk about getting them out! I’m not sure what time frame we’ll be talking about but my cervix is clearly changing and I’ve started contracting so I assume there is only so long you can put something like that off! The doctor told me previously that around 35 weeks they usually have a very small chance of having to stay in the NICU past me being in the hospital, and she seems pretty confident that I could have them anytime after 35 weeks and be very well off. YAY!!! The end is in sight!

You know how most pop bands basically suck live? Actually, outside of country singers, I haven’t really seen a lot of groups that are really good live. But, I saw Maroon 5 on Jay Leno tonight and I am actually really very surprised how good they sound live. I need to check out thier new cd now. I liked their past albums so this will probably be good too.

I heard a group on XM Radio today that I instantly fell in love with… Plain White T’s. I have never heard of them before… are they fairly new? There’s not much info about them on their site. I guess I’ve been out of the music loop lately.

Is Howie Day really dating Britney Spears? I can’t remember where I heard that…. something like they met in rehab? I like Howie Day…

Okay that was random. I’m going to take a bath.

I’ve had a not so wonderful day. You know what I think it is? It’s this damn recliner. I can’t do anything or else my feet, ankles, and hands get swollen and my blood pressure gets high so I’ve had to basically sit around and do absolutely nothing. Being bored like this can drive a person crazy and I think that it finally has really just driven me crazy. I barely slept last night, I woke up 6 times before waking up for the day. I’m sore all over. I’ve been having contractions but of course, nothing worth calling the Dr. about. I’ve just basically felt totally miserable and shitty and it all came to a head and I had a really bad day. I took it out on Preston, which wasn’t what I should have done. But, in the end I had a big cry fest while Preston held me so I think I’m okay now. I’m just miserable, hormonal, and ready to not be pregnant another day. But I really need to be… for another week at least. I know I need to keep these babies in here as long as possible so… I had my day of throwing fits and being upset and feeling sorry for myself and now I’m ready to start a new week of being miserable. Hopefully this week I won’t go crazy. I’m tired of surfing the internet, reading magazines, reading baby books… I think I’m going to find my box of books that isn’t unpacked yet and dig out a good novel or two. Or maybe I’ll get some new books. Any suggestions on good novels for women needing to not go crazy?

We went to the doctor today for my 33w appointment. Nothing new! I was on the monitors for about 30 mins and had a couple contractions but nothing exciting. I’ve been having them a lot the last few days but of course, nothing regular or anything. So, I’m still going to be miserable and pregnant for at least 2-4 weeks. I have another appointment on the 22nd (34 weeks) and then I have a sonogram and appointment on the 29th. I’ll be 35 weeks and that’s when I’ll find out if I’m going to have a vaginal delivery or c-section. They are still both breech right now so we’ll see how they are in 2 weeks! I can’t wait for the appointment on the 29th. At 35 weeks the doctor will finally be able to tell me how much longer I’ll have to stay pregnant and what type of delivery I’ll have. I’m holding her to not making me go past 37 weeks! That’s only 4 weeks away! I can’t wait! Who knows though, maybe I’ll go into labor on my own before then. I doubt it but I wish!

So, I cannot wait to see the movie Hairspray. I haven’t seen the broadway show or the older movie but this looks so good! I love musicals. And John Travolta! He plays a woman in this movie, it looks like it’s going to be really, really good. I’m going to have to drag Preston to see it with me though. I told him I wanted to see it and he was not thrilled about it but hey, he might actually end up liking it. He likes musicals too so I don’t know why he isn’t too stoked about it. Probably because it’s John Travolta dancing. I watched the cast on Oprah today and it really looks so good.

Anyway, I need to lay down, my back is killing me.