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Emma & Ava
The girls are 5 months old today! :censor: When did that happen? I blinked and they went from my tummy to 5 months old!
Last night I was considering listing some of the girls old Carter’s baby clothes on ebay because really, I’m never going to use them again. Realistically, if I have another girl or two I know that I’ll just go out and buy a bunch of new stuff so really the chances of the stuff ever being used again are slim. So I was going through stuff and everything is so tiny! Preston walked in right when I got to their little preemie sleepers that used to be too big for them and I lost it. I started crying about how tiny they used to be and how I know it’s stupid but I just can’t get rid of their stuff yet. Or ever. It’s silly I guess to be so attached to clothes but it’s a reminder of how small they used to be and it’s very emotional for me. Especially the stuff that Emma used to wear. She was so tiny and fragile.
I still worry about her all the time. It’s so hard having preemies. It’s not too bad with Ava because she is, for the most part, right on track with a baby her age but my little Emma is about one month behind. It’s hard to not compare them and expect Emma to be doing the things that Ava does. One month of development is a lot of stuff when you think about it. For example, Ava just rolled from her back to her tummy in the middle of the night. I came up stairs to get her and she was on her tummy! Emma doesn’t hold her head up for very long when on her tummy and she’s still a while off from rolling over. I have to stop myself when I start to compare them and think that she should be doing the things that Ava is doing. It’s crazy that with them being twins, pregnancy on my end was exactly the same for both of them but for some reason Emma was the one to run out of space and Ava thrived more. Who knows why. Emma is actually doing exceptional though, she’s just developmentally the age of a 4 month old instead of a 5 month old.
Anyway, they are getting sleepy. Time for a morning nap!
October 30th, 2007 10:49 am
Aww! Well, if it makes you feel any better, I had to leave Wal-Mart the other day because I was about to cry.
I was looking at baby clothes for my sister and I saw a premie sleeper and I looked down at the girls and they are so big now and that little sleeper made me think of how little they were and I ALMOST lost it. I have kept a lot of their clothes too. I want to part with them, but I always prolong the inevitable. 
It’s kind of funny that a seemingly silly little outfit can mean so much. 
OMG I am about to cry! Lol, anyway! Emma will catch up. 
It’ll take a lot of time, but she’ll get there. 
I asked my doctor about how premies develope [no one thought I would go as long as I did, we all thought I would deliver when I went into pre-term labor @ 32 wks], and she said by about the first year to eighteen months they are caught up. 
I am sure every doctor will quote something different though.
October 30th, 2007 03:57 pm
hi! I love your blog, I kind of stumbled upon it. You should totally keep the clothes, they hold so many memories and I know in a year or so your little girls will have blast dressing up their dollies in them!
October 30th, 2007 05:45 pm
my daughter Allie will be 3 in March, and I just can’t believe it. I kept most of her baby clothes knowing if I had another girl I would still go out and buy a ton. I finally went through them to give some away and sell some..and I lost it too. I can’t believe my little baby is a little girl now.
PS. Your girls are absolutely gorgeous, and I love their names.
October 31st, 2007 08:47 am
Meghan is 12 months old and it took me until last month to sell all her old baby clothes. I had a massive box of stuff that I had saved but I needed to room so I made myself but them on ebay. I still have a bag of stuff with two or three items from each size that I just couldn’t get rid of. I don’t plan on having any more either and to be honest, if I did, it will only be when we are financially stable so I will be able to go out and buy all the clothes I want for the new baby.
October 31st, 2007 03:45 pm
I know how you feel. My kid has Down Syndrome so I know what it’s like to compare them to other kids. They all do things at their own age tho so you’ve just got to learn to accept them for who they are and be happy that they’re healthy. Shannah is 9 months now and just beginning to crawl so she’s behing a kid without DS but she’s doing really well for having it… so.. I’m really happy atm
Emma will do fine.. my neighbours kid didn’t roll over till he was about 6 or 7 months!