Today Emma has been fussy because her teeth are just about to break through on the top. You can see faint white marks but so far they have not broken through the skin yet. She’s been in pain all day from it and it just breaks my heart. She’s had a fever to go along with the teething. I’ve been giving her Tylenol and numbing her gums, but it doesn’t seem to be helping much. Poor thing.

I have got to schedule their checkup with the pediatrician tomorrow. I keep forgetting. I’m a little anxious and nervous to see what he has to say about Ava’s foot. I don’t think I’ve mentioned this before. They were so restricted while I was pregnant, and one of Ava’s feet ended up getting pretty squished and so it points inward. It’s not extremely drastic, but it is noticeable. You can straighten it out, but when she’s just relaxing it, it pulls inward and when she is standing it points in as well. When he first saw it he just said he was going to keep an eye on it, but they haven’t had a checkup in a while.

Also, I need to schedule an appointment for myself to see my OB this week. I want to ask her some questions about getting pregnant again and my chances of having a VBAC (vaginal birth after cesarian). I’m not sure how long you have to wait after your c-section if you want to try a VBAC. I haven’t found anything that addresses that specifically. Maybe it doesn’t matter how long? I want to know for sure what she thinks about it because my c-section was very rough on me. It was horrible actually. Most women I have talked to said that theirs was great and that had hardly any pain afterwards. Not the case for me. I don’t know what the reason (no one knew, actually) but when I was laying down I was completely fine and pain free for the most part. But then the second I stood up, I had the most excruciating pain I have ever experienced. I feel bad for the people who had to witness it. I am not a wuss about pain. This felt like nothing I can accurately describe. It was bad. It was at my incision site and it felt like an extreme burning and stabbing pain. Not to mention, it turns out I am actually seriously allergic to adhesive. I have always had a bad reaction when I put band aids on and things like that, but it has never been bad enough to stop using band aids if I really needed one. Mostly it just looked really bad because my skin would get really red. After my c-section they put this tape on my skin to hold the bandage over the incision, and when they took it off, it felt like several layers of my skin had been ripped off. I had the worst reaction to the tape. My skin looked awful and felt even worse. So, no one knew if this pain I was having was related to the reaction to the adhesive or just the fact that I had just previously been cut open and had two babies taken out of me. Who knows. All I know is that I do not want another c-section unless I absolutely have to have one. So, basically, if she wants me to wait a while before trying a VBAC, that is reason enough for me to not try and get pregnant again until she gives me the go ahead.

Tomorrow Preston starts his class and I’m really actually not looking forward to it. I am happy and excited for him that he’s going, but I know I’m such a wuss when it comes to being away from him. He’s going to be gone all day. I kept looking at the clock today when I was doing things and kept thinking “geez, this time tomorrow he still won’t be home”. I just need to suck it up. Soon he’ll have a job out of the house and I’ll just have to adjust to our new routine. I have a lot of things I can do to keep busy though, so that’s not the problem. It’s just the missing him part. I can’t imagine what it’ll be like when he’s actually a commercial pilot and would possibly have to stay overnight places. I can’t sleep well without him. Maybe he’ll need to get some travel health insurance or something? Incase he gets sick away from home… or something?

I need to get more inventory up in my boutique. I’ve had quite a few emails asking me for specific things, so I need to get more up and get the custom order options up. I have a custom order option up for the basic 3 inch bow but that’s it so far. I have so much to add, it just takes time to get the photos all done and put on the site. I can’t tell you enough how completely pleased I am with the way the store is going so far. I can’t wait to see how it’s doing a year from now!

Well the hubby is heading to bed so I better get off here. I need to snuggle him as long as possible before he’s gone all day tomorrow! Haha Don’t I just make you wanna puke?