I’m so excited for the girls birthday party coming up! I was going to make them these cute little tutu dress outfits but I am thinking now that they will most likely be too hot in them since we’re having a BBQ outside. It’s been so nice lately, and HOT. In the 90s. I love it!

I think we are going to have a 4th of July party here at our house this year. I’m excited for that as well. I love watching all the fireworks and stuff. BBQ’s in the summer are so fun! We’ll have Ashton this year too so that will be nice. It will be interesting to see how the girls react to the fireworks. Hopefully it won’t scare them.

Preston and I have our 2 year wedding anniversary coming up on July 29th. I can’t believe it’s almost been 2 years already! We’re planning out a little vacation for the occasion. I think we are going to Vegas again! We have been there quite a few times together but it’s so special to us… it’s our “spot”. So we love to go there. Vegas never gets boring! We found some really awesome vacation packages too. I don’t think we even considered another place for our anniversary. We would like to go to Mexico next spring but for our anniversary, we really just want to go back where it all started. (FYI: we went to Vegas together the day after we met… I need to finish the love story, I know! ) I’m so excited though, I LOOOOVE Vegas. I’m hoping to lose a few more pounds before then so I can feel 100% confident in my bikini. Maybe I need some lipovox so that I can lose fast?! Yah right! I would never take diet pills. They’re so bad for you. Really though, I’m at my pre-pregnancy weight so I just need to tone up some so that I don’t feel self conscious if my booty jiggles. Not that a little booty jigglin’ ever hurt anyone!

Anyway, I’m off to watch last night’s episode of House. I missed it but luckily it got recorded. I’m sad this is the last episode till next season!

I have a lot of things on my mind right now so I apologize in advance if this is all very random!

Baby shoes are probably one of the cutest things ever. I have been looking for little bitty baby Converse for a while and today I finally found some. They are sooooo cute!!! I got the last two pair in the girls size. They had pink ones but only one in their size so I went for the black. You can’t go wrong with these shoes. They go with everything. They were on sale too! It was the best buy I’ve made lately!

I’m excited today because I landed a really good advertising spot for my baby boutique. I can’t wait for it to go up. It’s on a really popular baby website that I frequent. I have high hopes for it!

I was at Kohl’s today buying more white onesies for iron ons, because I ran out of the size I need, and I couldn’t help but gawk over the baby boy clothes. Call me crazy but I have baby fever, already, again! I know I have said that before. We just want a boy really bad. I started charting again so I know when I ovulate, and this month is still a boy month… I’m torn if we should give it a shot this month or not. We’re only trying when the lunar calendar says it’s a boy month for me, like I’ve said before. But I’m afraid if we try on this one boy month, I’ll want to keep trying and not wait until the 5 months of “boy” if I don’t get pregnant this month. Maybe I shouldn’t “rely” on the lunar calendar? All I know is the Chinese still use it and it’s proven to be really quite accurate. I don’t really rely on it, I just want to have the best chances whether or not it actually works! But I don’t have very good will power and I know if I get into the mind set of possibly being pregnant, I won’t want to quit trying until I am pregnant, which is bad because the boy months don’t start until September. I am crazy. Listen to me. Analyzing the boy months and all this silly stuff! I think about babies too much. Is that possible? The only thing I’ve ever really wanted to “be” is a mom and now that I am, it’s the most incredible thing in the world. I just want to be mommy, mommy, mommy! This past year with my hubby and our babies has be the most amazing time of my life. It’s been life ya know? Like really, really, really good living. Does that make sense? I would have an entire house full of kids if I had enough money and space!

Anyway…

Preston is starting school next Monday and I have to admit, I’m looking forward to it and I’m not looking forward to it. He’s going to a refresher course to get his airline dispatcher license. He went to school for this previously but never took his final test. Anyway, so he’s doing that starting next Monday and it lasts two weeks. He’ll be gone M-F from 8am-5pm. I’m going to miss him!!! I’m so used to being with him 24/7. We work together at home and we can be with each other all the time. It’s great. I always thought I would get sick of a person being with them so much but I just love having him here with me all day every day. Also, this is a huge career move for him. He’s going to get a job as an airline dispatcher while he continues his pilot training, and he’ll most likely get a job very shortly after his refresher course is over. Which means he’ll have an out of the house job instead of (yes, instead of, not in addition to… ) his current job. This is a big thing for us. It’s what we have been working toward for a while and now it’s all coming into place. It’s extremely exciting and a little nerve wracking at the same time. I have no problem at all being at home with the girls and taking care of them by myself during the day and all that…. I just have a problem with not being able to get hugs and kisses and talks and jokes all day long!!! I guess I am just extremely spoiled. I’m sure I’ll get used to it in no time. It gives me time to miss him, which is nice sometime too.

Okay. I’m done now.

There was a time when I was pregnant when someone told me not to keep the girls up late in hopes that they will sleep later. I kind of thought that seemed like silly advice because obviously if you stay up later you will want to sleep later, right? No. This person was totally right. I have been putting the girls to bed around 9pm-ish lately and they have been waking up at 8am every morning no matter how late they stayed up. I’m not a morning person so I haven’t been too thrilled about this. Well last night they started acting sleepy early and I was going bonkers trying to keep them out of everything all day by myself so I decided that they were going to go to bed early. I started getting them ready for bed at 7:30pm and they were in bed by 8pm. Sure enough, they didn’t wake up until 10am today!!! I actually woke up before they did. So I’m going to get them to bed earlier from now on and see if they will sleep a little later, 9am is good, if I put them to bed early. Who woulda thought?

So speaking of by myself, Preston has been out of town since early Monday morning. My dad is coming down here to look for a job because he and my mom are considering moving down here, and so Preston went to pick him up so that he could build his flight hours. They are getting back tonight sometime. I’ve missed him so much! This is the longest we have been apart since we met! And it’s the only time I’ve ever gone to bed without him too. So I can’t wait for him to get home. I’ve realized the last couple of days how much of a help he is with the girls. I’m so thankful to have him. I’ve gotten a work out going up from the first floor to the third floor twice every time I need to come up here! Usually Preston or my brother carries one of the girls for me but since I’m here all by my lonesome, I’ve had to go up and down, up and down. It’s not so bad. I’m just complaining. I miss my hubby!

I don’t know what I’d do without Preston.

He always knows the right things to say, even if I don’t want to hear them. I’ve been stretched a little too much lately and today I finally got really pissed off (not at him) and he said something that just clicked and made everything make perfect sense. I went from really ticked off to feeling great again just from his one sentence reminder.

That’s one of the things that I just love about him. He’s doesn’t sugar coat things and tell me everything I want to hear. He gives it to me real and honest. I might not always like it at the time, but it always ends up being exactly what I needed.

Where was I?

So B and I got into Dallas and tried to get into our apartment and they had made a mistake and the apartment wouldn’t be ready for another week.

So. They were able to get us into a different apartment at the last minute, but we still had to stay in a hotel for a couple days. I was so sick of staying in creepy cheap motels but at least now we were in a big city with decent hotels.

The next 5 and a half months weren’t really much to talk about. We moved into our apartment and B went to school every day while I stayed home. When he wasn’t in school he was sitting on the couch playing football on Xbox or watching football on TV. In October I went to Vegas with my Aunt for my 21st birthday. He stayed home playing Xbox and watching football, ignoring our dog I always watched after and let him piss all over the carpet which in the end I had to pay to replace.

In most ways it was a pretty uneventful 5 and a half months. But in some ways it was the most important 5 and a half months of my life. When I was left at home alone all day and put 2nd (and 3rd) to football and the Xbox, I had a lot of time to think about what the hell I was doing with my life. Don’t get me wrong, B is a great guy. (Was? He’s changed a lot recently… ) We had a lot of fun together but when you got right down to it, we had zero in common. It was depressing to think that this was all that it was going to be for me. I couldn’t shake the fact that I wanted a family and all B wanted out of life was a truck and a boat.

So now we’re at December 2005. The first Christmas I would be spending away from my family. It was a hard month for me because I missed my family and friends so much. We did go back to WA that Christmas, but we went to visit B’s family, not mine. (His family is great, I’ve remained friends with his sister, she’s such a sweet heart.) So it was a hard time for me and if B had showed any amount of care for my feelings during that time, things may have actually ended up differently. On December 23rd we were in WA and we went out with all our friends who we hadn’t seen since we moved. To make a very long and dramatic story short, I had quite a bit too much to drink that night. You can picture it I’m sure… depressed girl in a bar the day before Christmas Eve drinking away her sadness. LOL! So after drinking way too much, I was extremely sick on Christmas Eve.

You would think that any loving and caring boyfriend of 5 years would be willing to take care of his sick girlfriend on Christmas Eve, especially since she was so sad and depressed and missing her family at Christmas. But…. B had tickets to the Seahawks game. In fact not only did B have tickets to the Seahawks game, his entire family had tickets to the Seahawks game… except me. They knew I didn’t like football, so they just didn’t get me a ticket. What on earth they figured I would do on Christmas Eve all by myself, I have no idea.

So I begged B not to go and to stay home with me because I was so sick I couldn’t even walk, literally. And do you think he stayed with me or went to the Seahawks football game?

To be continued…

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To my wonderful husband!!! He’s such an old man!

Okay guys, Valentine’s Day is coming up soon. What are you going to get for that special girl in your life? I personally love to get the classic Valentine’s Day gifts – candy, teddy bears, jewelry, and especially roses. The internet makes it so easy these days to send a gift to your loved one. I’ve always thought it would be sweet to have a guy send me flowers at work on Valentine’s Day. But whatever you do, do not have one of those singing telegrams sent to your girl at work! That is the wrong kind of cheesy gift for Valentine’s Day. Don’t show up at her work dressed as cupid either. Bad, bad idea.
Play it safe and surprise her with some beautiful flowers or some sweet candy to show her you’re thinking of her.
And hey, girls love flowers all year round ya know!